The Beginnings of the Excruciating Wait

I keep telling myself I will NOT become one of those neurotic, emotionally unstable, waiting by the phone people waiting for a referral. Too late. I find myself comforted by the belief that the exact child that was meant to be mine will be when the time is right. I am going under the assumption that she is just not born yet. I feel that this assumption just keeps me grounded in the long wait that is facing us. Who knows how long it will be. Recent talk is that it will take at least 7 months by the time we get our referral.