Exasperated, I'll try anything

O.K. folks. Phenergan is my new best friend. I know my last post talks about how much better I was feeling. Well, the crappy nausea is back with a vengence. I can't take it anymore. I feel like a slug, and worst of all I can't drink anything. It still tastes like I chewed up a hand full of aspirin, but with the phenergan at least I don't constantly gag and dry heave over it. This will definitely be the last time I ever get pregnant. It just doesn't agree with me, and selfish as it may sound, I'm not willing to feel like this volutarily ever again. When you fall in love with adoption, you wonder why you ever wasted so much of your life and effort trying to get pregnant. And, very quickly adoption has the upper hand. Other than biological children initially being cost-free, the process of getting the child (feeling crappy, getting fat, pushing human life from your loins) is worse. I guess you have to weigh the emotional stress against the physical stress. I'd trade in some of my physical for emotional right now.

Feeling Better, Getting Fatter

Yay! The morning sickness has nearly subsided completely. I still have a nauseating aversion to the smell of soap, though. That was the same story with Flippity too. It's hard to do laundry, and taking a shower is my nemesis. Also, I can't stand the smell of anybody. Not stinky people, just normal pheremones. YUCK!

I don't know how normal people gain only 25 pounds during a pregnancy. My normal calorie intake (that keeps me at the weight I like) is 1200 cal. per day, even if I am working out all the time. That's nearly impossible when you are pregnant. I know I don't have to sit down to a Pizza Hut deep dish meat lovers pizza daily (I have learned a few things from the previous pregnancy). But in order to keep the body feeling well, I have to eat something every 2-3 hours. That usually consists of toast, a small sandwich, fruit, or whatever sounds good at the time. I lost my baby weight the last time, granted it took a few years, but nonetheless I lost it. This time I hope not to gain 50 pounds, because I've heard that it's harder to lose weight when you are over 30.

I have a midwife appt. on Wed. We heard the baby's heartbeat a few days ago, so I know she's still in there.