Well, I haven't posted for quite some time and it's because there have been lots of things going on in my life. The Big Guy and I found out recently that I am pregnant. Almost 11 weeks at this point. This, of course, puts a halt to the adoption plans (not necessarily by my choice, but the agency policy). I've been nauseated almost every day for the past 3 weeks if not all day, at least for several hours.
It's a big change to go from feeling great and knowing that your referral is just around the corner to feeling like crap and knowing that you are not getting a referral at all. There's been lots of tears and sadness to mourne the "loss" of my Ethiopian baby. With that said, I also embrace the plans that God has for us. Obviously He knows what He's doing, and how can anybody argue with the master plan? Sometimes we're led down a road and we stand there saying "what was the point of this?" Well, this is one of those times for me. I know someday we will pursue the Ethiopian adoption, I just don't know when. I'm really not ready to let it go, but I don't have a choice.
So, although, this is now my pregnancy journey I am still leaving the title as is. This is still our journey through adoption because I am not closing the door on it at all. And even though this is a bit of a delay in the process I know it must be for good reason.
2 months ago
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I know this has been an agonizing several weeks for you. You've put so much heart and soul into preparing for the adoption, but as you said, God obviously has another plan. We've prayed for a baby, another child to complete all of us, and He has answered. I pray every day for you to have a healthy baby and for Him to keep you safe through this time. I am overjoyed at the chance to be a grandma again, whether to your biological child or to an Ethiopian child. I'll be there next to you, with you, behind you....wherever you need me.
Love,
Mom
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