Embarking on Week 17

"I Can Only Imagine" by Mercy Me

(this song is obviously about Jesus, but when I hear it I can easily imagine these thoughts running through my mind the first time we lay eyes on our daughter).


I can only imagine
what it will be like
when I walk by your side

I can only imagine
what my eyes will see
when your face is before me

Surrounded by your glory
what will my heart feel
will I dance for you Jesus
or in awe of you be still

Will I stand in your presence
or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah
Will I be able to speak at all

I can only imagine...

(it always brings tears to my eyes)

Knowledge of the unknown

As I was sitting in chuch today and praying for my daughter, I got a premonition that she's been born. I don't know when but I have an overwhelming feeling that she's here! I may be eating these words in a matter of months, but I have prayed for God to allow me to feel her presence when she is born.

The cup is half full

The time is just flying by (only when I look back on it, of course). 15 weeks down and hopefully the journey is halfway accomplished. The courts close tomorrow, I thought it would never come. The beauty of it (if there is any) is that in 2 months we'll be back on the edge of our seats with anticipation. At least we can all take a breather from the stress of "getting in" before the court closure. I am waiting until September to paint the room and put the finishing touches on it. I don't think I can bare to have it sitting empty waiting for our daughter for too long. I don't think we'll put the crib up until the referral comes. I KNOW I can't bare to see an empty crib sitting there day after day.

The remainder of this original post has been deleted due to the misinterpretation of my thoughts. Let's all remember that what we read in cyberspace is completely one dimensional, so it is easy to read text and not know anything about the person or real feelings behind it.